Pebbles...

I seem to have an intrinsic fetish for clay products. These are the some of the pictures I took of clayware at Dastakar..

A convinent wrapper in the dustbin of memory.. Forgotten sighs and a dusty story.. Faded letters..jaded words... Bitter thorns ..crossed rusty swords.. glitter of nightlights ... smogs of smokey highlights... Flashes of mirrors and smoke.. All around the dead fires that stoke... Hands reaching through the thick fog.. Hands searching for the branch rogue.. Its a long way back.. Its a lone one way track... Come alone ..go alone.. rest all flesh and bone.. elusive ... games.. petals and stems.. Fall today..fall tomorrow.. the autumn of the days ..and days of sorrow.. This ..this and this .. empty games of hubris.. A convinient wrapper..an apostrophe.. Lights out and a break..

One of these days a freind asked me (in context of marriage), if I felt 'alone' coming home to an empty house with no one to welcome me. I thought over this and seriously said 'no'. That set me thinking as how different my 'ideal' life would be from others. I decided to frame it out in this post. In my ideal life, I should be working in a R&D  company with a single studio flat in a preferably European town. I would get up in the morning, brew my own mega-cup of tea and sit over a newspaper for few mins with a large crust of my favorite bread. I would finish it and read my favorite book in the loo. I would then go to my office, work with a bunch of creative and happy people, give great outputs. I would have my lunch in an open air cafe. Finish with awesome coffee and head back.Finish my work and go back home, change into running gear, go for a run , come back, take bath and fix myself a great salad/soup. I would then read a book, finish any office work a...

Yesterday, I had met a long lost school mate . Thanks of course to Facebook.He was in mumbai , and was presently working with a reputed company. School freinds have changed over time a lot and the boy I knew was long gone..now a father of two and having gone through the rough and tumble of life ..he had grown a bit taciturn.  We were good freinds and had parted ways when I joined the Navy(in 12th) and he went on to pursue his studies. I remembered him as a passionate young guy(we both were,I guess). Intelligent and highly idealistic and rational. He was one of those guys who had the conviction and the right amount of hardwork to see through it. Sincere and humble, he was a quick wit. And through junior college..there were quite a few romantic interludes. I used to envy him as he was quite popular with the girls...When I had told him so , he had once laughed it off. I could see it very clearly that he didnt make quite a big deal about his finesse or intelligence.  But...

In any group of people there are those who are productive and contribute and then there are those who are full of bull shit. The selection of people varies as a society progresses from a 'bullshit' driven society to a 'productivity' driven one. A bullshit driven society will have following characteristics:   1. an almost religious liking for hearing only 'good news'   2. Knee -jerk and dumbass reactions to perfectly sane happenings   3. Too much of circular logic to justify anything as long as it suits the offender   4. A psuedo piety and sense of culture which stands guards against any innovative idea   5. A craze for 'nice' people   6. A pathological fear of facing the truth   7. Selection of candidature based on what is said rather than what is done. A productive society will on the other hand have :  1. an almost single minded devotion to improving the quality of life  2. A desire to hear the reality and take corrective ac...

Now that I have been told by my boss that I m too cynical and sarcastic for my own good..I have taken that feedback and tried thinking it through. I made a list of things I m cynical about and the things I believe in : Cynical 1. God: or more like the concept of religion 2. Essential 'goodness' of human beings 3. the 'Indian way' of doing things(do it because we have done it this way since2000 bc) 4. following societal rules 5. Marriage 6. greatness /chauvinistic view of organisation/culture/nation 7.trust 8.Women 9.titles/surnames/designations 10.casualty-if you do this>this will be your reward Non-cynical 1. Love/romance 2.beauty 3.Honesty 4.crime and punishment 5.Learning 6.Freindship 7.Fun 8. thinking clearly ,rationaly 9. Respect 10.Women So there it is. the lists are almost equal . Which means that I am cynical by 50% and non-cynical by 50% ,which also means that since there is no 'control' or datum I am pretty much balanced o...

When the sun will go down ..you will go home.. When the dust has settled you will go home.. When the sweat has dried you will go home... When all has been what has been..you will go home.. When the sun has gone down.. I will still be walking When the dust has settled I would still be wading thruh the path.. When the sweat is dried..I would still be sweating When all has been what has been..I would still be walking.. A breif moment of pass.. A brush of time... A touch of fun.. A bit of tryin.. When the sun will go down ...you are sure of your home... When the dust has settled ..you have your water ready.. When the sweat has dried...you have a cushion.. When all has been what has been..it all will be a past for you.. I would still be walking... For I have no home to come to.. No cozy corner that I want.. No, I didnt think of it .. I am as ready as can be, for the roads I am as ready as can be for the dust I am more than ready for the fragile trust.. I am a...