Pebbles...

 There are some times when you actually think you cannot live without a certain thing and you start building up a hype around that stuff. It would be a watch, it would be a shirt, it could be a vehicle, it could be a person. And if you give it enough time, you will realise that the desire for that particular thing has made you glorify that thing beyond its actual beauty. The only thing that has actually given me some pleasure on this where my desire for something has matched its output for me is maybe the bike, the bullet which I bought. I anticipated not too much riding it, but I mean as I ride it, it gives me much more pleasure than what I thought it would. Apart from that, maybe non-living things like a watch, the bambino I got, it is okay. But then I keep on going back to my Amazon Fit. So yeah, I mean it is great, but it doesn't give you that pleasure after you get it. The whole build-up of desire and of ungettable things make things very attractive. And this is very true of p...

 Some things are utterly unknowable, whatever you try to predict and whatever you try to extrapolate, they can't be known. A classic example is that of effect of AI. Now, when AI came into prominence and I say prominence because AI is basically machine learning, it's not artificial intelligence, there is no intelligence involved here.  It is only machine learning and the way it was hyped up by the management gurus and all was very clear that no one knew what one was talking of but no one wanted to be sounding ignorant. That being said, there have been many times when something has come up in a social space or in a media space where people have started predicting stuff like it could be something like FIRE that is financially independent at early. There could be something like jobs are bad, freelancing is good, there should be some kind of a, you know, saving plan should be this and this.  All this presume that a lot of things are going to be stable. Like for example, AI pr...

  What if you needed nothing from anyone? What if there was nothing that anyone could give you? And what if you never wanted to give anything to anyone? And you reach a state where you really don't feel the kind of validation seeking or validation giving that's required? Would that be a good state? What would be that state be good, bad, ugly? Would that even make any sense to have qualifier as good, bad, ugly? Or it is beyond good, bad, ugly, beyond nice and not so nice, beyond all the shit, beyond all the envelopes, just being nice, not nice, just to be tattam asi, that which you are. Fuck, what a line!

 Never have I been ever a fan of very loud things in life and when it was ever thrust upon me, I tried to deal with it at a very decent level, but it's very difficult for me to deal with loud stuff, loud music, loud people, loud atmosphere. It just overloads my senses. I would rather have a quiet evening with a few friends and intimate conversations than a group party.  I am not capable of understanding a whole gaggle of voices, the so-called fun and the mirth and laughter in a group, not because I don't find it fun, but somehow I find it very dishonest. I find loudness a performance. It's a performance for no one in general and everyone in particular, where everyone is trying to prove that they are happy, they are nice, they're good.  It's a mob performance and somehow is very disingenuous and dishonest at its very core. That goes for loudness as a whole. It is so performative that anyone who subscribed to that kind of lifestyle, music or anything else reveals a la...