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This article is actually being written after Pradip put in his thoughts on marriage on this site http://yemula.blogspot.com/ I feel that the crux of the issue is that as males we are not designed for marriage. Our entire instinct rebels at the thought of marriage. I am yet to see a happy husband. The only "happy" ones are the ones who are so fake that you find them brainwashed into believing everything their "better" half tells them. The more I look at this issue the more i get depressed. I am so happy being a bachelor. I enjoy this freedom and I really do not feel a need for the "caring" comfort of a wife. I feel that I can exist comfortably by myself even in my old age. The day I feel I will be a vegetable most likely I will commit euthansia. I cant bring myself to buy this idea of marriage. Its like the classical problem of "squaring the circle" ...you end up with an irrational number. So does marriage. Its so against nature and instinct that ...

I dont know how many of you have observed this ...I am sure all of you have been a victim of this . Victim of Professional Lingo speak. What exactly is Profesional lingo speak? Well its basically the tendency to carry forward your Official Professional Language into the daily day to day language you use. There are a few interesting observations to be made on lingo speak .. First , its most likely to be carried out by guys fresh into the professional field. For example you will have young medicos "examining a specimen for degradation" while buying tomatoes..or young cadets "putting the tomatoes to a fitness test" or guys fresh out of engineering "measuring the tomatoes with vernier callipers" ...!! These are not what is done ..these are what is spoken. Secondly, the lingo speak is also resorted to as a snide remark where a semblance of secrecy is mantained,or example , if a doc refers to a smelly guy next to him as an "olfactory disorder" ...wou...

I have started hating "sarkar raj" even before I have seen it....Although Ramgopal Verma is one of my fav directors. Part of the blame majorly goes to the Bachan Trio. They give me the heeby jeebies....It is really sick to see each of them mouth politically correct "ooh aah..oh myies" at each and every occasion. Every interview or shot starts with the paens to the mighty troika. And all three walk in as if the entire world is waiting to hear them propound the path breaking theory of the groundbreaking films they are making. And they peek from their Gucci's to reaffirm the faith that they are indeed the "first family" of bollywood. But what really gets my goat is the fact that each one praises the other in no less exaggeration..than the other does to the rest. So we hear from Mr Amitabh that his son is the next Al pachino , we hear from Junior that senior is a better actor than Brando and both chirp in that Mrs Ladida Rai-Bachan is the next...

Talking in terms of non-platonic love , I feel that there is an uncanny resemblence of heady man-woman love and a use of hallucinogenic drugs. Look at the similarity Love Drug(say LSD) 1. Triggered by emotional events emotional events , sorrow, hapiness, depression 2. Love is a secondary sensation to this main event and leads to approximately a. Lightheadedness b. Temp euphoria c. A general feeling of hapiness 3. Lasts for a short time and is followed either by long periods of depression or Withdrawal symptoms...and cravings. worse ,suspension of logic leading to...marriage or suicide. The similarity is striking and has been studied . The only issue is that it is only in human beings that love is celebrated as something divine and drug as something vile. Which should be the reverse. There is a ...

I will be trying to post a few pictures that reveal how stupid, small and insignificant we are..in this macrospace.. 1.Infrared eyes reveal a star-forming region, hidden to regular telescopes by thick dust clouds. Astronomers study images like this to learn about star birth. A cluster of three young stars makes up the bright center. The reddish bowl, or arc, traces the outer surface of the cloud encasing the young stars. 2. Infant stars appear as pink and red specks in this infrared view from Spitzer. Newborn stars like these are usually hidden behind thick dust clouds so they cannot be seen with normal telescopes.Wisps of dust that hold organic molecules, or star-forming ingredients, are shown in green. Yellow stars are massive infant stars and the blue dots are older stars. 3. A galaxy is like an extended family of a star. NASA's Galaxy Evolution Explorer studies these stellar families with ultraviolet light, which reveals young stars. The blue regions in Messier 31 show where yo...

I guess God listens to the prayer of an aethiest ...more than believers ...Maybe just to prove a point. Whatever it is..Rains are finally here... Its water thats falling from the sky alright but I do not know how it becomes dark ,smelly and putrid slime on reachin mumbai's streets(yeah i kno the sulphuric acid crap..and I also kno sulphuric acid is not dark putrid and slimy)... Wat a feeling of first rain. Reeking water down your new tee shirt...bleaching and staining it. The glorious black jelly floating down your back reminding you of your pet lizard slithering down ...And the smell of moist warm earth..petrol grease and deisel ..wafting through your already numb nostrils..reminding you of the fact that this is it..The first shower of the season. Yes reminding you that the time is near for clogged drains, impromptu swimmings and boat rides ..a la venice. Reminding you of stained floors, sticky soles and the sweat and rain mixing to generate unthinkable aroma as you stand in the l...

For those who have heard about IITB, (Who hasn't). ..there is a beautiful restaurant inside the campus called "Gulmohar". It is not the best but definitely value for money when it comes to restrained pockets of IIT junta. In the rarified and closed academic society of IIT, this is the upscale version ..the "ritz" of students. It is one of those places where you get your sweetheart(who is most likely in IIT too) to dinner if you reaally reaaaly reaally are serious about "pataoing " her. She will appreciate what it means to be in Gulmohar when you could have given her a choice of hostel 8 or 11 ka khaana. Also if you really want to "freak" out ..(one must realise that freaking out means khaana and daaru at cheapest rates ) ...minus the daaru bit..Gulmohar is the place. Or if you want some nice food and have it without your hostel mates' spoon intruding in the way of your thaali..this is THE place.. I go there because of neither of the above...

I got an explanation as to why it has not rained in mumbai..yesterday. It seems gods are angry with mumbai because there is too much "sin" here..!! I dont know about the sins part..but things have been getting unbearable around here. It so bloody fuckin hotttttt....! I dread getting out of enclosed spaces after 9 o clock. I tried beating the heat by going for swimming but i sweat in the pool too. I tried eating watermelons, drinking chaas , downing nimbu sharbat but the heat follows me around like a sticky glue. My T shirt is in love with me..stick to me ...I have stopped investing in deodorants , its of no use now. My soap consumption has increased by 4 folds as i increase my baths to 5 per day. My sweat glands have been working overtime for two months without pay. I baulk at eating hot foods. Tea has become a no no even for an addict like me. I get burnt up seeing people smoking in the sun...wat the hell. I tried moving around in Bermudas (a la jamaica) till the neighbours ...

While i strictly do not agree with self help groups that one should learn a new thing every day..I believe that learning new things are one of the most exciting things that u can do to urselves . Infact one thing leads to another and one might find that one learns something with a motive and finally it helps him/her in some other way..In some cases one might never "use" the thing he has learnt . But its exciting never the less. The day we stop being excited ..rather let me be more specific..The day I stop being excited..about anything..I think life will appear as a burden to me. It will be one year since I joined IIT ...What did i do with this one year..What did I learn, Hmmm let me list out a few things.. 1. I got my maths funda cleared. 2. I learnt about wonderfull new things like Fuzzy Logic , Reliablilty, Genetic Algorithms, Classical Indian Astronomy..I learnt a few nuances of anatomical sketching...I improved my skills at MATLAB. 3. I participated along with a freind in...