Yeah
Really ..do i ? I have never felt this sense of despondent desperation ever before in my life . The loneliness and the fear that I face at this point in my life I can't share with anyone. It's like at the end of 40 years I haven't got anyone to share my emotions fear or trust. It's just a superficial hi helo stuff with people I thought were close. It's emotionally draining to see that people I trusted just don't have that stake in me. It's just a formality that becomes close as per convenience. Yes that's what it is ...convenience. But yeah that being said, I have realised that I have to get beck on my back , either find genuine freinds or partem3rs but this prese t shit has to go. No use dragging a superficial relationship beyond its expiry date. .