Pebbles...

Today I met a freind who had come in to the city for some work. As we sat down to dinner and started talking about treks etc...he cleared his throat and said 'I got to discuss something I have been hearing about you' .. Now, when I hear this kind of throat clearing I know something is wrong but hey he was afreind and how wrong could it be. ..? Between mouthful of chicken swarma I asked him ..Yeah? 'It seems lots of people saying that you do not respond to calls ..you do not attend socials and in someway you have turned into an 'anti social'...Has it got something to do with 'matrimonial problems'? Now ..I almost laughed..infact almost choked on my swarama..! I told him...' You called me? ' Did I refuse? Infact I drove 23 Kms to just meet you! In what way do you think I am anti social. He said..well been hearing alot so i thought I would ask you if its something thats true. Here is a gist of what I told him.. Yeah! I am an antisocial to...

Now there was a group where we had to tell our names and explain as to why we paint/draw! I got up ..told my name and as to the question 'why do I draw'? I went blank. All I could give was a nervous and a real amused laugh! Nervous because I was blank and amused because of the answers I had heard before 'I am passionate about drawing'..'I like design'..I want to draw because I am preparing for NIFT/NID entrance etc etc..And I really couldnt think of any smarter answer... I thought while was standing and I really thought..Passionate? Naah... Design ? Naaah...Love drawing ? Naah... Why do I draw? I could give a million answers and they all would be wrong. I really cant put a finger on why I draw..! But I do draw obsessively..  I draw on my organiser..I draw on newspaper...I draw on office post it notes..When I see a figure I am subconciously looking at the veins and muscles fold and thinking how to get the 'stretch' feeling on paper. I look at ...